Ever since I entered those preadult years, life's been on a role.!
Parents said - "Your school doesnt have science stream, if you want to get into a good school in your 11th grade study HARD! "
Mamta's Action -"I did. I got a 96% in Math and Science which seems to be a solid score"
What happened - "I was going from one school to the other as they put up 1st and 2nd and 3rd list of selected students. I wasnt on any. Finally, I had to go meet up some influencial people to get my admission. Hear from them that if I should have studied harder if I wanted admission in a good school"
Parents said - "Study hard if you want to get admitted to a good college, since competition is tough"
Mamta's Action - "I dint. I dint score well a first few tests and so lost confidence in myself.Parents had a lot of expectations because I was intelligent and I dint seem to be able to fulfill it. I couldn't face MYSELF."
What happened - "I was lucky. Life gave me another chance. I scored a meager 58% and yet secured admission in one of the most prestigious universities of Gujarat because the overall pass percentage was low "
Parents said - "Make the best use of this opportunity"
Mamta's Action -"I did. I studied hard, got good grades. Took part in extra curricular activities and excelled. "
What happened - "The teachers praised me. The principal gave me special permission to walk into him cabin anytime I wanted to talk to him. I was looked upon by juniors. I was one of the most successful students in college."
Finally my dream to come to US was true. I had got my Visa. There is was in one of the premier institutes of "the land of dreams!".. I was at USC. With so many dreams to fulfill I came here.
What happened -"I scored horribly in the first semester. Dint even score enough to maintain thelowest possible GPA (a 3.0) required for graduation. I lost all self confidence yet again. My carefully constructed strength through all the hardwork of 4 years was evaporating every moment. I finally got hold of myself scored a little better in the coming semesters and managed to reach the 3.0"
Finally, now is the time to look for a job. My university promises a 100% recruitment.I Worked hard on my resume. I visited the campus job fair. Reaching earlier than most people , I visited almost all the stalls that I could in the given time. I was happy with myself for the professional attitude that I carried during the fair. It was neither demure nor arrogant. But a perfect blend! Everybody asked me to apply online on my university's job portal.
Next I see is ...
"YOUR REQUEST FOR INTERVIEW HAS BEEN DECLINED!"
Every single day , receiving the same line again and again from USC's recruiting center. I even interviewed with a company who mailed me saying they have recruited a person who they think better fits the job. How would they know if I fit the job without asking me any real technical questions. But anyways, I guess thats what my dad was referring to when he was talking about COMPETITION.
USC keeps telling us to FIGHT ON! We must since we are trojans. But my question is , how long? Isnt a trojan a human too? Dont they lose hope? Dont they feel frustrated? Does everything have to be so discouraging to test how strongwilled a person is? Dont strong willed persons break down ?
How long do u FIGHT ON!?